Goodbye

How do you say goodbye knowing it will be the last goodbye? This past week I went out of state to go visit my grandparents. Their health is failing and it’s expensive to go out and see them. We just don’t have the funds to do it more often. I struggled to say goodbye to them. I didn’t know what to say knowing that I wouldn’t be able to make it back before they passed and they know it too. My heart breaks with the knowledge. I wish I had taken more pictures. I have all of these regrets and no time to fix them. I have been off and feeling out of sorts since we came back. Struggling with the idea that I should have hugged them a little longer.. a little tighter.. and now, I have no time to do so. Time and space in this case are the bane of my existence.